Big Pappa

Today

It was a hard morning. As I have stated in the last blog, Katie and I have been under attack. This morning was no different. The enemy hit us again and he hit us hard. I went to our house that is under contract to be sold, and mowed the yard. As I was mowing I was listening to Corey Russell. Corey is a IHOP guy. God used Corey this morning to shake me and and remind me of some truths that I had been dancing around lately. As I pushed my mower back and forth in 98 degree heat, I cried my eyes out. It was not out of some type of chastising from God. It was out of a place in my heart that was broken because I sensed an area of my life that was not what it should be. Katie and I have come to two main truths about these attacks. The first truth is that since the day we were married satan has been trying to drive us apart. The second truth is that Satan wants us to be distracted from what lays ahead of us. We have a calling and Satan wants nothing more than for us to be about our Fathers business. So the day ended much better than it started and once again I am reminded of 1 John 4:4 "the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world".

Stress!

Katie and I are under attack. The enemy is coming at us with both barrels blazing. Pray for us. Pray for peace, wisdom, and discernment for us.

Katie

It is 3:15 am and I can't sleep. I am tired just can't sleep. Katie is out of town camping. So I can't sleep. I can't explain it. When she is here I could sleep through a tornado, but when she is gone I can't sleep. She comes home tomorrow. :-) My other half returns. Apparently she has the sleeping half.

Glory

Wonderful Creator

Today was hard at times. I was overwhelmed by the enormity of the vision that God has birthed in me. I looked out over this vision and It felt like I was standing at the rim of the Grand Canyon with the command to walk across it. My father is kind and gentle. He is not at all thrown by my whining. He instead gently reassures me that he is in control and I am just a vessel to be poured out on this world. He then pealed back an ancient pathway and let me see and feel the heart of Moses as he was walking through the desert shepherding the animals, and knowing what was ahead of him. I felt the urgency of the hour and the desire to please my Lord who has done so much for me. Then He urged me on, to get about His business and to step up and out. I know my path and I know it leads straight up the mountain towards him, and I see it a little clearer now, so my steps take on a little quicker pace and my heart skips just a bit to know my King is waiting for me..... So up the mountain I go, step by step becoming a living burnt offering for him. A pleasing smell of burning flesh and death. Up Up Up Up Higher and Higher. I am just setting here now awed to be initiated by THE Great Initiator. I know that I just posted this link, but the end of this video I love. It is a picture of what I just described.

God

Took a walk through the woods today looking for God, listening for God, praying for just a glimpses of God. It felt a lot like Hansel and Gretel looking for bread crumbs to find my way.

Weightiness

ZHOP tonight was awesome! The Spirit of God rested on me with a weightiness that I can't quite explain. It left me with a longing for more and at the same time I feel a sense of wholeness at the same time. Much Much Much revelation from God tonight. Once again he rocked my world and left me standing in awe, while wiping away the tears.

Lack Of Words

Words are hard to come by lately. I sit here every night and try to write something. Most times these days my mind is filled with thoughts of God and intimacy with him. That is not a very fun topic to write about to the readers. It also leaves me with this fear that I will alienate some people and to others It will just come across as piety. I will just give a brief little tid bit to where I am at. I am pursuing God and it is taking me some strange places. So if I write about things that make you feel uncomfortable or make you think that I am a pious jerk, please email me and give me your thoughts. I like to use this a a form to express what my day is like. I have been holding back on here, as to not scare away my friends. Sorry. It wont happen again. So I will give you my heart in writting.

Love

Love lifted me! When nothing else could help. Love Lifted Me!

Saturday

Saturday was great. Kirk Bennett from ZHOP and 7Thunders spoke on meditating on the scripture in a way that brings revelation to what the God is revealing through His world. It was very good and I learned a lot. After Kirk spoke we had a prayer going on in the Charlotte 24/7 prayer room site, that is justing getting under way. Prayer went from noon to midnight. We plan to get started the beginning of March and working our way up to 24 hours a day 7 days a week of continual prayer. God is really moving through the community.