Killing the Liar

It is never an easy thing to take an axe to one self. That is what the last 5 days or so have been like. Those close enough to me throughout my life know the Liar that creeps within. Lying, exaggerating, fibbing, protecting, holding parts of the truth back, misquoting, misinforming, ego boosting, self preservation, misleading, manipulating LIAR!!!!!! This is not something one wants to see in himself, so one creates justifications and alibis and far out stories to cover and hide the ugliness. So in the past year I pulled out the axe and started chopping. The first thing I found was that this weakness had become a safe place that I had to die to. It is amazing that we have such a hard time cutting out the ugliness, because we have accepted it as who we are. Well with hands shaking and tears in my eyes I started painfully cutting the ugliness of lies away, one swing of the axe at a time. So here I am last Wednesday night feeling pretty good about how far I had come and how I am becoming a man of truth, and then a friend /mentor pointed out that I had just began, that it was time to stop being a child who depends on mercy and start being the man I am called to be and step into grace. So I stand on the battle field and hear my mentors words ring out like those of William Wallace " I AM William Wallace! And I see a whole army of my country men, here, in defiance of tyranny. You've come to fight as free men, and free men you are. What will you do with that freedom? Will you fight? Aye, fight and you may die, run, and you'll live... at least a while. And dying in your beds, many years from now, would you be willin' to trade ALL the days, from this day to that, for one chance, just one chance, to come back here and tell our enemies that they may take away our lives, but they'll never take... OUR FREEDOM! So I step onto this battlefield, battle axe in hand and I swing at this stronghold of lying that lays in front of me. And when I walk off this battle field I will be a free man and ready to step into this next level of service to the King.

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[Jeans]

Big Pappa- After all...life is weeding through the mess of deception that we have created and that of which has creeped in to find our true selves, our inner child that once was honest, non-judging, compassionate, passionate and full of love.

Through your journey, through everyones journey including my own, I hope and pray that we ALL find the truth within ourselves. The inner child that once was.

Best of luck to you my dear, long but not lost friend. Even though we don't speak often, or see eachother enough, our inner childs are interlinked forever.

[TTS]

You have always been wrapped around my heart. I've wanted to make the world right for you ever since you were a little boy. I've wanted to rush in with my magic wand and make all your pain go away. But God showed me that its through your pain that you will become srong and yet tender. He showed me he would take all you pain and use it for his honor and Glory. He made your heart tender for those that hurt.So when I couldn't rush in I resorted to the thing I should have done in the first place lift you up.I knew God had called you from the time you were little. My prayer for you since you were little is that God would raise you up to be a mighty procalimer of his word. Dad and I have always been there lifting you up and asking God to bless you. He has given you a wonderful help meet in katie. I hope she realizes how very much we love her.We couldn't be prouder of you. Looking forward to sharing Glory with you. i hope I haven't made your journey harder.